last post of 2016

I am 20 tomorrow.  Cant believe that time passes THAT fast that i've been living for 2 decades and i dont feel like i've done something dedicated. I have no direction as to where i am going and what kind of person i want to be in the near future after i graduate from college. I always sound like i have a BIG DREAM and i have everything under control. But tbh, i am just a lost girl, i have no specific goal at all, be it long term or short term. I want to be rich, that's it. nothing specific and i' ve never come out with any planning that is in line, even with my general and superficial ''goal''. So lost that i wish i could just freeze the time at this moment and make the clock of the world stopped tick-tocking, until i can come out with a real, specific and personalized goal or path of my own.  Selfish i know. But i am just an ordinary hooman and that is how hoomans are. SELFISH. SELF-CENTERED. 

As the cliche goes : new year new life.  But just freaking face the reality. You are still you, and you will still pass your time in the same old way tmr believe me. A new year does not make you a new person. A new year does not make you a better person but your resolutions along with perseverance makes you one. You can be a better person in the middle of year after all and not necessarily to be in the beginning of year. So don't be like '' Aww.. doomed ''  if you didn't spend the first day of 2017 as you planned or expected. If you lived exactly like how you planned, then what's the meaning of life? So my 2017 resolution : Stay calm and embrace uncertainties.