Lee Yao Dong

Hi, I don't know if you're mad at me now, I just can't fall asleep now, I feel so unsecured?, I can't really describe how I feel now, just weird, when you're not saying goodnight to me. 

I know you don't like her, right? Anyway, i never am a confident one, and I hate unanticipated things. I know you might not love her, but I just couldn't help but keep thinking that you might love others when you're chatting with someone else. To me you never are someone that would take the initiative to talk to other girls, so when you did, you had a feeling towards her, and that scared me a lot. 

When I know you went to find her again, after what you've promised, even if that was just a small talk, it hit me, and that was a hard one. One of my biggest fears is losing you, I hate to admit that, I hate to show you that I actually love you more than you do to me. One of my birthday wish prolly would be not loving you so much. The more I love you, the easier I get hurt. That's obviously not a good thing.

You lose everything when you got too serious in a relationship. I know I won't get hurt when I learn how to care less. I'm a slow learner probably, I still don't know how to do that, I don't know how to care less when it come to you. Well, I promise that I would get the trick someday, I just need time, give me some time . 

I think if I could stop being a controller, give you enough space and care you less, you would definitely be happier. I would be happier.