05/03/2015

You know, i was super looking forward to the 3rd of March. It was like the only thing which hold me up and so i got to pass through all the meaningless days. But now it passed, and i feel like i have lost my direction in the maze. i feel confused, tired, and bored. Actually i already registered for business course in taruc, but then i just feel like dont want to continue for higher education. i just wanna travel and relax.

i wanted to study law in brickfield or chemical engineering in nottingham but then i ended up choosing business. do ya know why? cause i clearly understand that 'what i wanted' and 'what i can choose' are definitely two different things. this is what we called life. and when it comes to this, we always complaint for the unfairness. we'll keep asking, why they can get what they want but we cant? 

and this is the thing i dont understand, does complaining get you what you want? does complaining make things turn out better. no actually, you are just wasting time to depress urself. why dont we accept it, work harder and struggle for a better future?  

Yuppy, this is exactly what i keep telling myself.....

regarding my result, i kind of satisfied with it, not good enough, but then i know that i dont deserve a better result. and i should have worked harder for bc, but then again, what is past is past, and we cant dwell in the past.