09/09/2015

看到yuwen 用华语写blog, 我也很久很久没有用华语更新部落格了, 感觉蛮奇怪的... 因为我就是比较不会跟朋友表露感情的人, 尤其是用华文 , 所以其实用英文比较容易写 , 但是我还是想要尝试看写华语的 , 期待吧? 

我现在真的活到很废, 每天四点多睡, 十二点多才起身 

一开始我一直埋怨一直吵一直哭, 因为很他妈的不想上大学, 去到一个完全不认识的地方, 没有认识的人, 必须跟各种各样的人做朋友(最重要是一开始根本认识不到朋友。。。 ) ,去到哪里都是一个人, 而且我从来不会在学校的食堂吃东西, 因为不想要一个人吃, 看着别人跟朋友有说有笑的, 就会想到中学的生活, 然后就会忍不住想哭 , 真的很惨!! 

幸运的是, 我有一班很 nice 的 classmates, 可能我的样子看起来比较串? 一开始没有人会来跟我讲话, 我又是一个不主动跟别人交谈的人, 所以一开始跟整个班的人是零沟通的, 整班人在讲话, 我就自己一个人静静的坐在最前面, 完全不会回过头听他们在讲什么, 自己一个人完电话... 哈哈哈! 是真的有点串

在考试前我才跟他们熟络起来, 真的很慢热... 其实他们一直都用跟我讲话, 但是我就不懂要回什么啊~ 就一直 ''哦哦哦'' 哈哈哈哈! 现在有讲了哟.. 我会尽量讲多点话的! 他们不是义务性的要主动跟我讲话, after all.

然后整班的男生, 除了 hong man 跟mark, 跟我比较熟的, 其他人都不会jhet ( embarrass ) 我, 他们会jhet 其他的人,  其实我会喜欢我班的人 jhet 我, 哈哈哈! 不要觉得我变态, 是因为酱子就代表跟他们熟, 他们才敢.

其实整班人对我都蛮好的, 一起吃东西的时候都会让位给我坐, 然后拍照的时候都会很给面子的说要跟manyee拍, 哈哈哈!! 然后庆祝classmate生日的时候, 因为我跟hong man 他们一起坐, 有人就问 ‘’ manyee 生日啊? ‘’ 然后其他人就会开玩笑的讲‘’ 不是啦,  manyee 生日蛋糕哪里可以将小的 ‘’ 哈哈哈哈哈! 虽然只是很随意的一句话, 但是对我来讲是意义深重的, 至少我会觉得我不是透明的

当然, 再好也没有我认识至少年的 jekzgnmg-ians 对我好啦~ 哈哈哈! 不这样子讲, 去马六甲的时候我会被打死. 我们大家都长大了, 过着不一样的生活, 不能再像以前那样每天粘在一起, 开开心心的, 无忧无虑的过日子, 不能再像一班八婆似的 gossip, 讲别人的是非, 哈哈哈哈! 很想你们快点 graduate from stpm!  必须承认的是, 我们的确没有以前熟络了, 感觉上已经有些不一样了, lets hope that the malacca 3D2N trip can bring us back to the past 

020915

cheng cheng!!  here i am.. first semester passed and hoping that i can get GPA 4.0... pleaseee 

college life isn't what i thought of when i was in secondary school.. i thought that i didn't really need to study for getting a good result, as long as i pay attention in classes.. well, obviously not so easy...  and i thought that studying in a college would be so fun cause there're almost all chinese and could get to know a lot of friends there but then actually you wouldn't wanna socialize around the school when you've bunch of stuffs to do.assignments, tests, tutorials. even if you've some leisure time, you would rather spend your time on taking nap or having a movie, you wouldn't want to wander around the school or chitchat with friends in the cafeteria.

Even so, there is something that makes me happy too 

yup it szzii you~  the one who's reading my blog, it wouldnt be my freinds cause they all know i didnt update my blog for quite a while.... so i'm writing this for euu~ 

how are you feeling now?reading a blog that's written for you~ kinda proud right? thanks me beh~
well. i gotta admit that i'm so? happy, when i'm with you  i didn't expect you to come over yesterday, even if it was just around 10minutes , but then i felt relieved after seeing you~ i just feel comfortable to be with you, even if we were just staying in the car, that would be enough for me.

so grateful to have a girlfriend like me right~   nah~ dont thank me~ treat me like a queen will do~ kekerr
actually, you dont owe me anything, you dont need to give me anything as a return, dont keep thinking that you owe me something just because i'm the one who confessed first. i was just simply saying that day about i dont feel what a girl should have felt when a boy going after her.....

and about you've never said the words to me....those aren't something important, after all.~ just try ur best to get a good result in  exam~ i'll be so proud of you, but then dont be stressful