people can really hate someone and love someone at the same time. at least i can, when it comes to you. you always make me so hurt and angry yet i somehow still love you so much deep inside. if i hadn't i would have left you long long time ago. after you provoked me, you'll always use the cutest way to light me up. then why you wanna make me angry at the first place? no idea.

i really love you so much you know? i know you knew it, that's why you keep taking advantage of my affection towards you. but you cant take it for granted. pls, dont push my limitation. it was really so hurt when i wanted to solve the problems between us but you kept showing me the annoyed expression. i tried so hard. to control my temper, to not being mistrustful when you are taping on the screen of ur phone. i changed A LOT for you, just dont take it for granted pls. no one can.

you were really so cute. especially when i chatted with wk and asked you if you have iphone charger. you thought you had but you said no. because you were jealous, didnt want me to chat with him. cutest act ever. i would take that as love? you love me right? but why you kept hurting me? i dont understand, really dont.

you hugging me from behind, it was so nice, and i felt so secured.
i keep worrying how much longer you would love me all the time you know. that means you never gave me enough of security, or i asked for too much?
i have no confidence in myself prolly, or i love you too much.